It’s 11 pm…
I’ve had a great day for the most part. A few bumps in the road in terms of my temper tantrum boy. My perpetual frowner of the family keeps me on my toes and on my knees in prayer most days. I taught some writing classes to some amazing kids, (kids that are not mine, but I’m blessed to be able to teach) got to see a friend that I haven’t had spent much time with lately, took my littles out to ride their scooters, cooked a pretty good dinner that four out of five kids actually ate, permed, straightened and styled my daughter’s hair, and had a tantalizing conversation with my five-year old wherein she expressed her concerns that I was, “Just too busy and she wants to spend more time with me.”
It’s so hard to get it all done.
It took a little five-year old to remind me that maybe my priorities are out of whack; that maybe I should concentrate less on my clean house and list of things to do and just get on the floor with her and color and play. Maybe I should skip that night out with friends here and there and build a tent in her room and eat pizza by the light of a thousand glow sticks.
She was speaking from her heart.
She wants more time with me.
And I’m a stay at home mom…
It made my heart ache.
And then I thought about God.
What about him? How much time am I really giving him? Is he feeling neglected?
Does he think I’m too busy?
I think I know the answer to that question.
I know that all we have is right now.
I realized that when my husband was diagnosed with cancer and our lives were forever changed.
Right now, I’m going to take the time to slow down and enjoy the craziness that is my life.
I’m going to jump on beds, and camp in the backyard and spray my kids with silly string until they laugh so hard they’re in tears.
I’m going to make every moment count.
Because what I’ve discovered is that in the end,
it’s the memories that you’re left with;
and I would like to leave my children with really good ones.
I’m going to give the first fruit of my time to the Lord and ask him to order my steps. I’m going to not worry about getting it all done and instead enjoy whatever the Lord happens to bring my way.
I’m going to trust that God knows what he’s doing, and honestly, I don’t think he really cares if my house is spotless or if the laundry is done…
But I know that he cares about the heart of my baby girl
and that he used her to send me a message tonight.
My kids are literally still awake and chatting away with each other in bed. If I were a good mom I might reprimand them…
But I think I’d rather just go make a memory…
Excuse me while I go grab my silly string…
Tomorrow’s list of things to do:
Make doc appointments, Pick up packages, Type syllabus for class, Call and get quotes on remodel, Finish lesson plans Go buy glow sticks and order pizza… (Because that little girl is so much more important than any other thing on my “list” of things to do.)
Message received God…
Be blessed y’all. 🙂